What doing? Doing what?

This started a few months ago, where one of my friends texts me "what doing"
I didn't think much of it, so i replied normally
But for the next couple weeks, I see this huge chain of "what doing" going around
Now this is where the problems start.....
I mention once "God I hate when people type to me, What doing"
My friends being a bunch of douchebags decide to spam me "what doing"
You know, I'm not mad at how annoying it was. It's more like, I don't like the fact that my friends would purposely bother me.
So this brings me to the topic of friendship. What does that mean to you?
Friendship is something profound. Friendship does not mean association, well it does, but when we say association, there is a sense of pure mutualism between the people, whereas in friendship, when you are together with all your buddies, playing basketball, or pigging on food, you feel more intimacy towards each other (no homo).

This whole time I've been mad at the bunch of douchebags (my friends). I realize, well whatever they do, even if it is to intentionally bother me, I shouldn't get too angry. One other friend said to me, If you let their petty antics get to me, then I'm just as useless as they are. And he's right, I don't procrastinate my ass off, I don't have commitment issues, I don't like keeping to myself to make people feel awkward, I don't like farting in public, I don't like correcting people everytime even though I don't know shit about what I'm talking about, I don't nose into peoples personal business, I don't try to one-up people, I do not make all your goals sound impossible, I am not fake as shit, I don't show people personal items of interest, I do not try and take a photo of people while they are taking a shit, and I do not make people lie for my selfish need.
Wow, and you wonder why I'm friends with these retards... sometimes I wonder too. But to every bad side their is a good side, memories I will enjoy with them always. I don't know why, but with some of these people, my food tastes better, my drinks are colder, and when I laugh, I can't stop. You can call it, the perks of friendship, the real intimacy between your peers, and occasionally I don't mind how homo we act. Er well to be honest most of it is on purpose.
But back to the problem at hand, I think it's because I consider them my peers, my friends, that I find myself more and more angry. Why would they want to harass me like this? Again its not the stupid text message that bothers me, it's the idea, of one of these fags, putting on his stupid grin, giggling, pointing his finger at me yelling "WHAT DOING WHAT DOING WHAT DOING DOT DOT DOT OH EM GEE".
Sometimes I look forward to hanging out with them, sometimes I have dreams of punching their fugly grill and pushing them to the ground... then when they get up punching them again. And this makes me look into their ugly sides, and wonder... Why am I friends with them?
Sometimes they go too far, so naturally I get angry. I know some of them, if they read this will wonder "Oh why is that bad? I play a timeless joke and you get angry? meh meh meh meh....etc". And I just want to point out all the stupid shit that he is, how useless he is. But I don't, because I know I am just as bad as anyone. I'm doing terrible in school, I lie to myself all the time, my parents and grandparents put me down as a problem child years ago, my little brother doesn't look up to me at all. So what am I to blame them for being useless people. Useless is a bit of a harsh word, but in my eyes that is just my description. My description for anyone who is not who I wanted to be. A hard working student, responsible, punctual, honest, respectful to who ever, loved by friends and parents. All things I can never be, so maybe all those times my mother calls me useless, she's right.
Well, that's just how life goes, the wisest man I know (My dad) always said to me, "son, all people out there are stupid, do not depend on anyone". I used to take that message really seriously, but obviously that's not what he meant, he meant for me to be independent and take a stand against whoever stands in my endeavor. Whether it's studying hard, and getting on the right track, or it's telling my friends to STFU whenever they decide to spam me "what doing" for fun.
My friend said something to me, "you're too angry over small things, if you keep this up you will scare people away, those closest will run the farthest" Now whether what they say is true and meaningful, or they (like lots of people I know) are fake as shit. It doesn't matter, I am who I am, and I will live by the other words my dad said to me, "They give you shit? You give them shit!" in his Chinese accent. This little slogan I live by has gotten me into lots of trouble, but if they bring me trouble, I bring it to back to them =]
Anyways, it's funny how a simple stupid text message "what doing" made me think so much about the life I live. There is no excuse for any of them being as useless, or lazy, or unmotivated, or trying to belittle others, or taking and not giving back. They say things, that hurt or offend people, then they say "just kidding". Well sometimes when I listen to them, the JK loses all meaning, I can't tell they are joking when they say that, I just see people who are fake, who care about nothing but themselves, and will use their friends in w/e way they can. I know thats not what they are like, or sometimes I wish I could believe that, but recently I can't bring myself to think that.
As for myself, I try to be the best person I can be. The poor Newspaper carriers walk around the subway passing papers get ignored and shoved aside all the time, I always ask for one, and give them the sincere thank you they want to hear, I for one never read the news, but I think taking a bit of time out of my day to help in anyways is the right thing to do, I also think of myself as considerate, I call everyone by the title "bro", because what are they but my bro's? The people that I will live with and die with, the ones that I spent my young life with. But self praise is nothing without criticism, I am sometimes what I call "unintentionally lazy" or to be fair, I'm just a retard. When I left the stove on during a party and went downstairs to play, my friend told me, luckily no one was hurt, but the tone in his voice made me feel like shit. He was right, I am useless, or rather I am a retard.
So what I've learned from this is no matter how useless others are, I shouldn't care what they do, I can only strive to be perfect. Sure I wish I could be friends with them, and they acted a bit more considerately, and sure I wish they can overlook my flaws like I try to do with them. But sometimes I get overwhelmed (yeah that's just how useless i think they are sometimes haha). But anyways, no matter who I meet, or what kind of problems I may be having, perseverance is the only thing I can count on.

I strive for a better future, for myself, and those close to me. And to the asshole motherfkers who I called friends, just a word for the future, Karma will strike, and it will always be behind you.

Wow after reading all that, I do sound like a huge retard.

Til next time y'all!

Teddy