What to do now?

Right off the bat, I'd like to say, despite my fears of this semester. I actually am quite proud of myself. Granted I haven't got my marks back yet. I limited myself to work and school. I haven't done anything fun for myself for about a month now. And you ask whats the upside to this, the upside is that I don't care really.

Productivity always makes you feel good, and a busy schedule makes you feel good too sometimes. Not too busy tho. And when you do get that day off, it just feels that much better. Of course not when you have to read 217 pages of psychology.

Now that finals are over, I can have an extra bit of relaxing time. Just enough to pep me up for the new semester. Well what can I say, I just wanted to say that it's good to be back to a more relaxing life style, it's more of a relief than anything. Kinda makes me less sad about the greatest tragedy in sports history (R.I.P Lebron, we'll all miss you after you kill yourself you failure). And congrats to Boston by the way.

But I think this summer will be a good one. Much better than last year, the new job I have is good, I wanna keep it I think. It's pretty easy, the pay is good, flexible hours, I can deal with it.

First few days of School free summer... I wanted to get back into being active, but the weather is being uncooperative (tornado warning last Thursday?). Oh wells that's why my mom got a treadmill (Thanks mom).

In other words life is good. Good until something stupid happens... then it stops being good for the moment, but that just means there are things to look forward to.

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

LeBron sucks

Lebron James, after seeing that dismal preformance all I have to say is SHAME ON YOU. NO ONE PAYED YOU TO COME TO SOUTH BEACH TO PLAY WITH WADE SO WE CAN SEE YOU FUCK AROUND DURING THE FINALS YOU FUCKING DUMB CUNT PIECE OF SHIT. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THE NEXT FUCKING JORDAN YOU PIECE OF SHIT. TRIPLE DOUBLE? SO MUCH GOOD YOUR FUCKING TRIPLE DOUBLE DOES WHEN YOU ARE DONW 3-2 IN THE PLAYOFFS YOU FUCKWIT. MAYBE YOU SHOULD HAVE GONE TO COLLEGE TO LEARN TO PLAY SOME MORE YOU ASSHOLE PIECE OF SHIT.

LEBRON IF YOU LOSE NOW YOU'RE FUCKED, FUCKED. YOU'LL BE THE LAUGHING STOCK OF THE NBA, YOU'LL BE THE BEST PLAYER TO NEVER WIN THE RING.

YOU'RE GOING TO DISAPPOINT ALL YOUR FANS AGAIN. START PLAYING REAL BASKETBALL, AND DON'T LET THOSE FUCKS THE DALLAS MAVERICKS BEAT YOU AGAIN. YOU GOTTA KILL THEM, AND SEND THAT ASSHOLE NOWITZKI BACK TO FUCKING FRANCE OR POLAND OR WHEREEVER THE FUCK HE'S FROM.

GO HEAT! FUCK YOU HATERS!

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

p.s Goodluck to you Lebron, really... goodluck!
GO HEAT!!!

You know whats bullshit?

You know whats bullshit? Life. No that's not true, the question should be-

You know who's a dumbass? Me.

Life is pretty bullshit, but occasionally there is an asshole willing to throw you a bone, but what do I do with that bone, I throw it at someone else, you know why? Because I'm a dumbass.

Good fucking luck and God fucking bless you miserable fucks,

Teddy

A sad day...

So as my mother was driving me and my brother to Costco this morning, I noticed a Student Drivers sign over a certain car. I thought to myself, hey that looks like my driving instructors car.

My mom kinda looked at me and said, "Your driving instructor died last year...". Oh man way to ruin my morning, I was really confused because he looked pretty healthy to me, or at least when I was taking lessons a while back. Turns out it was stomach cancer, I was really shocked. Personally I've met his wife, and I know he has a very young son, it's gonna be hard living without a father, and a husband.

Then my mother told me, that her brother's wife's father. So my uncle's father in law, just recently died of stomach cancer as well. I've only met this guy once, my impression wasn't very high of him. I had nothing against him, he was a typical Chinaman, but just less than a year from when I last saw him, he's gone now... that's pretty unbelievable.

I'm really sad about my driving teacher's passing, my heart really goes out to his family especially his young son.

Then I thought about this, I've been eating really unhealthy recently. Sometimes me and my friends binge on junk food just for the sake of doing it. Maybe this is telling me something, watch what to eat because, who knows, stomach cancer is not something I want to encounter ever.

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

Exams and other things...

So I'm back on this thing... and we all know the only reason I'm ever on this is when I want to QQ.

But in anycase its time for exams... yep Final exams... its what we've all been waiting for ain't it?

Anyways that's all I had to say... goodluck to you all.

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

Back in Brooklyn

My man Melo is back in Brooklyn where he was born and raised...

It was a bitter sweet moment for me, but I realized hey, the only reason I was ever a fan of Denver was because Carmelo was there.

Well, I'm glad he likes the team he's on, and me? I'm now a New York Knick's fan. Go Knick's!

Goodluck and Godbless!

Teddy

Love is in the air!

So today is single awareness day? Huh?

Well I think it's an overrated holdiay anyways...

And this year is worse than last year, I mean at least last year I got to watch NBA all star weekend (HAHAHA)

Yeah, this year is not a good year for the ruving but then again, when is it ever for me right?

I got a couple text messages, happy valentines etc etc etc  you know what I mean

Im not saying its meaningless though, I actually quite enjoy people acknowledging me, and how sad I am... Q to the Q.

Yeah I'm pathetic I know... hahaha

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

PS. Happy Valentines Day!

"You're an idiot/embarassing/creepy/a retard!"

I'm writing this, because you guessed it, I'm not too happy...

Usually my beefs with the bottom feeders of my wonderful world. But today this is about someone, who ranks pretty high in the useless scale in my opinion, me.

So I had this long practical joke drawn out, and it got my friends pretty excited. But when I finally told them it was just a joke, well yeah it didn't go over as I expected. Not gonna bore you guys with the details, but basically it involved me creating a couple facebook accounts and messaging myself... makes me sound like a huge loser I know, but I thought it would have been funny.

Anyways I got some pretty harsh criticism, about how I can't be trusted, or how I'm an idiot, or how I am fake as shit. It didn't bother me at all (well a little bit). Until I thought about it for a while.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I have absolutely no self respect... or so it seems. I took one bad joke (it was funny when I thought it out...) too far, and all of a sudden I come to a realization. Wow, fuck my life. And as I started prying for reassurance I was even more sad. I realized that all I do is make fun of myself, for attention because I think people think its funny. I realized how much of a loser I am, I'm not doing so hot in school, I haven't worked or payed off any loans for half a year. Besides being somewhat of a clown, I have nothing going for me. I'm just a dog, I have no self respect, and I bark about it every moment I get.

Basically after I trolled myself for a week, I realized that all my problems are not other peoples fault, they are my own... Sure it's a wonderful world, but its a lonely one too because no one can put up with me.

I'm usually optimistic... like with the other bad boys I deal with, I know somewhere in my head that they aren't bad people. But this time, I can't say anything for myself, the way I'm living my life is absolutely pathetic, and the fact that I have a few friends is already pretty amazing. My parents must have been the best in the world if they put up with a stupid kid like me, what am I talking about, I'm fking 21... I should be doing great things with my life. But I can't, because I don't care about any of that, all I want to do is pull pranks, and tell dirty/racist jokes.

I'm not good for anything, good for nothing. All I do is offend people around me, even my friends, all I do is offend them or embarrass them and myself. Sure it's funny sometimes, but usually it's just me making an ass of myself. And that's probably why no one can put up with me.

I want to change... I really do. It's funny, I usually say I'm proud of immaturity. I'm still stuck as a 15 year old, seeking attention the only way I can, by being a douchebag, because I have nothing else.

That's the way I saw myself today... and it better change soon for the sake of everyone.

Goodluck and Godbless

-Teddy.

Hi! Why are you mad today?

I probably have said this before, but it's just another bit of wisdom given to me by papa Zhang, "For you, me, anyone, you don't have problems, you are the problem". Advice that I never took in until recently.

I don't understand why, but the older I get, the more sad and pathetic I think life is. What the fuck is wrong with me? I am 21, going to be 22 soon, and among my friends, even the "men" I see more estrogen flowing than a field of dairy cow's. Some of which cry over the most stupid shit I've ever heard. I tell them they are fucking idiots, then they cry more and think I am insensitive.

Bottom line was, in everything I've seen recently... no one was doing anything wrong.

In a few days it should all blow over... and if not congratulations, you have officially grown ovaries you fucking pansy.

Again I'm the biggest hypocrite I know. I absolutely hate reading into stupid shit like this, but here I am yapping. This blog was suppose to be something to share happy thoughts and pictures of my wonderful life. But sometimes even the best of adventures needs some conflict.

On a separate note, I realized what my mom was saying these few years. I really do love to argue... I'm like a dog, whenever I get the chance to bark, I don't stop.

Anyways to all you people out there who live lives of total ignorance to other peoples problems, I envy you!

And to those that live one totally devoid of humor or excitement... No one does shit for you, do it yourself.

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

Highlights of the week! Chinese New Year Banquet!

So to top my shitty week off, I got to party it up kinda...

I was invited to a social function (yay) by some friends and I brought a buddy with me.

It was good times. I'm not one to complain about mass amounts of food... but the portions for 10 people are friggin huge... we had at least half leftover from all the meat dishes... seriously... we didn't even eat any rice or noodles!

We enjoyed some quality entertainment, such as magicians (who used to be a lawyer), and some singing and dancing. Oh of course the dragon dance!

Afterwards the floor was cleared and everyone danced it up! Too bad there was a grand total of like 10 people OH WELLZ

I got to meet some great people too!

 Before the dinner!

 Who says everywhere I go is a sausage fest?

 

Anyways that wraps it up

Goodluck and Godbless!

Teddy

PS. People need to stop QQing about stupid shit...

My demise....

So... about that test I bombed... turns out it was worse than I thought...

Yea I guess this is a course that I can't do... Sad to say...

Makes me think sometimes, maybe I'm not the smart kid everyone thinks I am. To be honest I'm not smart at all! Sure people say, there are dumber kids out there, but I can't compare myself to them. That was my excuse back in the day... "The guy next door owns an XBOX... the kid in the other class doesnt have to do fractions" etc etc...

Oh well life goes on...

For every failure, is new motivation for success... Life goes on...

Goodluck and Godbless everyone! And if I have any faith left, its that Chinese New Year will be a good on this year!

Teddy

PS I hate public transit

U MAD?

Well how to start this......

Usually I'm a very nice and docile person... that was a lie.

But in any case, life goes great but we sometimes hit bumps... it could be someone stole your phone, or you're getting kicked out of your house (QQ), do bad on an exam... all sorts of problems. But recently, I've been having problems with people.

YES YES PEOPRE the pieces of shit that make life so much more difficult, but sometimes we have no choice.

People do the strangest things, when you say something they don't like, they shut down or turn on you. My friends friend can judge someone I know, but I can't judge them back or something? I think that was the rule. But totally unrelated... okay I lied. There are lots of problems with PEOPRE today, so many that I won't even start to list them. Sure I am a hypocrite, I am loud, disruptive, you name it... I bite my nails, I talk a lot of trash in anything competitive, I secretly fart in elevators (or not), I call people douches, I am a douche. Sensitivity is something I always respected though. Not sensitivity as in QQing over every bad thing that happens. What I mean is the simple rule, I don't ask because I don't care or I shouldn't, and if I do, I respect that.

I don't go around telling people, so and so is depressed because their grandma is sick, so and so is a pervert because he uploads tentacle porn, or so and so's parents were divorced, or so and so is crying in her bathroom because she got rejected from University. I mean what could I possible gain from that... laughing at peoples misfortunes or bringing them up to them is not something you should want to do. But that's all I have to say about that.

I don't know why but everyday when I see people like this, I feel sick. Some people now-a-days kinda like laughing at problems from other people... I can understand why... someone does something bad to you, and you think, I hope he dies... totally reasonable, a flaw that I have too. I've always been described as vindictive... even my parents say, that I take the beef too far sometimes, got me into tons of trouble back in the day. Once I was suspended from school for throwing a combination lock at a kids head just because he ran around claiming he had my lock combination, another time, I threw my shoes at a classmate because I thought they were bullying me while I was drunk... I can get very angry sometimes... and I try to change, if I have to... I guess. But seriously, even the most disgusting of humans deserve a break sometimes... in their legs.

I know we live in a wonderful world, but sometimes, just sometimes, there is always a lurker in every corner, waiting to throw some dirt and shit into your face. I've never been one to leave things to fix on their own... but sometimes I remember the reason for them... "I have no problems... I am the problem"


Anyways thats a good enough rant for the day... if life gets any shittier I will be happy (HAHA) to update.

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy.

PS. I just bombed my first midterm today awesome

PPS. I'm not joking about the leg breaking...

Crazy Crazy Highlights

Honestly JR... people call you inconsistent, people call you undisciplined, but thats not important... Badass dunks and highlights are important.

Also see

That time of year again.

Well I'm home...

After leaving the US and returning home, I thought about something...

Why did I leave? Okay stupid question, of course I have to go to university. Oh well, its probably because I miss my family, my crazy yet eccentric family. Sure we might have to go back to reality sometimes but I'll see them soon! After all we are family!

My posts usually always have a moral though, and today... I'll just say family is important! After not seeing the people for a while you kinda miss them.

On a funnier note, I went to New York City before I came home, it was cool, I saw the Times Square, I saw the Madison Square Garden, Empire State building etc etc etc...

Anyways here's to a successful semester of motherf**king bullshit

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy

My trip continued!

It's been a hectic week, and I've been thoroughly educated on some American history.

First was the trip to Mt. Vernon, Good ol' George Washingtons crib down in Virginia.

More to come of course!!

Merry Late Christmas everyone!!

Goodluck and Godbless

Teddy